A big step

I wrote to this Company and I will see how things go. This is the blog website: .

I saw the advertisement in the Catholic News. I want to at least try and see whether I can be a Consecrated Lay Person. Of course, it is God's calling that should be the primary reason but I must take the first step.

"The Lord who scrutinizes our hearts would work mysteriously to convey his messge(sic) and will to us." This is taken from one of the entries of the blog. It just 'struck' me in the face unawares. I feel that it is a message for me, an assurance to me.

Ramblings and Musings

How can it be only "human"? We are not merely human but temples of the Holy Spirit and daughters of God. As such, the content is impure and immoral. It is even subconsciously idolatrous and adulterous. It is not due to biological impulses or "ovulation". These explanations probably stem from a prior decision to have enjoining contact in advance and a lack of repentance towards it.

As Heaven's potential citizens, don't we have the responsibility to purify our souls for our Master? Only Jesus can truly satisfy the yearnings of our soul, not a human. Needless to say, the earthly exception to this is marriage as a vocation.

Sexual impurity is idolatry: Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry (Col. 3:5).
This is taken from http://www.settingcaptivesfree.com

I have a real problem. I fell into temptation again. Who am I to judge others for similar offences then? One simple inclination led to boundaries being pushed further till I went back to what I wanted to avoid. From there, there was no turning back and despair took over. Continuous viewing ruled.

The physical worship shown is not true worship. It smacks of impurity and lust. The appeal of the act makes me out to be a beast. It is not the yearn for love or marriage anymore. As a result, biological reactions are caused, and still exist.