I am a little sad at a piece of news I found out. It is good news but not really so for me. I am not sure if this is God's way of revealing His will for my life. I have not exhausted all the options yet but I am not sure if they will still stand.
Nonetheless,I know Daddy-o has heard my deepest desires and whatever He wills for me will be beautiful and perfect for me. Perhaps the little revelations He has given to me are His signs pertaining to it? If so, Lord, please grant me the grace and joy and courage to accept it. I know though that He will be with me as I go through this, as He promised to be with me in all my trials pertaining to my state of life.
Whatever may be, I wish the people involved in the news God's blessings. The good thing is that it is merely slight sorrow but not heartpain. Perhaps this option is really not the right one for me for certain factors. Now that I have found out this news, I know my boundaries and will refrain from any more activity. It is a good decision, I feel, so as to prevent any unnecessary negativity from the other.
God healed me within a short time and I think I know why. I included this option based on head knowledge, that it would be good for me and meet my needs. However, my heart was not in it. Hence, my heart was not hurt :)
Monday, August 20, 2012
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Assumption of our Blessed Mother
'For I have found His favour
And my heart rejoice in Him.'
As we sang the hymn My Soul Magnifies The Lord and these lines came, I know that my heart sang them too. It truly was the Holy Spirit glorifying God in me and Mother Mary praising Him with me, as I had prayed. My own relationship with God came to mind.
Actually, this prayer had been answered even before I prayed it. How great is my God who knows what I need even before I ask Him! How great is He for using me to glorify Himself! :) During Offertory, I was given the realization that I am special, set apart, anointed and chosen. Despite the times I nurse a flu, I can still sing to His glory. How indulgent and loving He is towards me!
The times He revealed His love for me came flooding back to me. I am referring specifically to God the Father, my Daddy-o. He first did so by calling me to a silent retreat and revealing His constant indulgence towards me. I believe the Holy Spirit gave me this name to address Him with, since they are so close to each other. The proof is that I thought it was just a name I myself came up with but it really means Abba Father :) He then affirmed His love for me through these lines which He repeatedly
sang to me during my choir retreat.
'I have loved you with an everlasting love
I have called you and you are Mine.'
How humbled and grateful I am! My God loves Me! I am but a mere human being who does not deserve His love. He is so almighty and I am so small, so unworthy! He chose to overlook my flaws and sins, my impurity and dirt. How humbled I am!
And my heart rejoice in Him.'
As we sang the hymn My Soul Magnifies The Lord and these lines came, I know that my heart sang them too. It truly was the Holy Spirit glorifying God in me and Mother Mary praising Him with me, as I had prayed. My own relationship with God came to mind.
Actually, this prayer had been answered even before I prayed it. How great is my God who knows what I need even before I ask Him! How great is He for using me to glorify Himself! :) During Offertory, I was given the realization that I am special, set apart, anointed and chosen. Despite the times I nurse a flu, I can still sing to His glory. How indulgent and loving He is towards me!
The times He revealed His love for me came flooding back to me. I am referring specifically to God the Father, my Daddy-o. He first did so by calling me to a silent retreat and revealing His constant indulgence towards me. I believe the Holy Spirit gave me this name to address Him with, since they are so close to each other. The proof is that I thought it was just a name I myself came up with but it really means Abba Father :) He then affirmed His love for me through these lines which He repeatedly
sang to me during my choir retreat.
'I have loved you with an everlasting love
I have called you and you are Mine.'
How humbled and grateful I am! My God loves Me! I am but a mere human being who does not deserve His love. He is so almighty and I am so small, so unworthy! He chose to overlook my flaws and sins, my impurity and dirt. How humbled I am!
Sunday, August 5, 2012
God's love never leaves
Once God has poured out His love into me, it always remains. How assuring and comforting!
I don't always follow a daily prayer schedule and inevitably, am vulnerable to the devil's insidious ways. A thought against God's values crept into my my mind, but that was the wakeup call to go back in prayer to Him. Praying two decades of the Divine Mercy Chaplet helped pull me back :)
My God is great though. He doesn't leave me with the love He previously poured into me but gives me more of it. I felt a fleeting moment of it during Mass and that left me teary. I knew then that it was He who was again revealing His love to me. It may have been fleeting but it was real. With God, one second of reveling in Him is more than enough due to the intensity of it :)
He has shown me His miracles in my life too. I was down with a bad throat and cough, but I was still able to praise Him with my voice, though not at my usual level. Still, that was enough for me. He also physically sustained me and protected me from a bad fall :) He has been graciously answering my prayer and those of others for me, by healing my left arm.
The most obvious sign that I reciprocate His love, and that is important to me, is that I still feel love for Him when I pray certain P&W songs. I can thank Him with true gratitude, refresh my emotional weariness and irritation in His presence, and declare with my soul that "my heart will follow wholly after you". Praise the Lord!
Lastly, He still deems me worthy to be His gentle and humble instrument to others. I know that is true, for there is trust and openness towards me. I thank the Lord for His continual promptings in me :)
I don't always follow a daily prayer schedule and inevitably, am vulnerable to the devil's insidious ways. A thought against God's values crept into my my mind, but that was the wakeup call to go back in prayer to Him. Praying two decades of the Divine Mercy Chaplet helped pull me back :)
My God is great though. He doesn't leave me with the love He previously poured into me but gives me more of it. I felt a fleeting moment of it during Mass and that left me teary. I knew then that it was He who was again revealing His love to me. It may have been fleeting but it was real. With God, one second of reveling in Him is more than enough due to the intensity of it :)
He has shown me His miracles in my life too. I was down with a bad throat and cough, but I was still able to praise Him with my voice, though not at my usual level. Still, that was enough for me. He also physically sustained me and protected me from a bad fall :) He has been graciously answering my prayer and those of others for me, by healing my left arm.
The most obvious sign that I reciprocate His love, and that is important to me, is that I still feel love for Him when I pray certain P&W songs. I can thank Him with true gratitude, refresh my emotional weariness and irritation in His presence, and declare with my soul that "my heart will follow wholly after you". Praise the Lord!
Lastly, He still deems me worthy to be His gentle and humble instrument to others. I know that is true, for there is trust and openness towards me. I thank the Lord for His continual promptings in me :)
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