My lessons were cancelled since it was Deepavali today. I had the mood to go out with someone but almost every call I made was interrupted while we were conversing and one hasn't been replied to even till now.
In the midst of it all, I realised that perhaps God wants me to be with myself, to spend some personal time.
I've had accolades bestowed upon me in terms of my singing. I truly think someone else deserves the label put upon me. I am aware though that God has been very generous with me, with this gift of voice to me.
How can I say thanks for the things you has done for me?
Things so undeserved yet you give to prove your love for me.
The voices of a million angels cannot express my gratitude
All that I am and ever hope to be, I owe it all to thee.
To God be the glory for the things He has done!
I was asked by my section leader to go help another choir sing. Of course, I'm not the only one going. However what is even more of an impact is the recognition placed upon my voice by my conductor.
We were rearranging our positions for mass due to the new clavinova and he wanted 8 "most experienced and not sharp" singers to be near the microphones. I expected my section leader to be one of them but he chose me. I am flattered but more abashed. I've a sharp tone.
My friend said I'm given a chance to bring out my potential. I feel pressure as I've to check my singing even more now, so that I can blend with the rest of the quartet members, especially the sop, since she holds the melody. Moreover, her voice's very round. My sharpness will spoil it.
The good thing is that my section leader is in front of me and so I can turn to her for help. Also, I'm directly in front of the speaker so I can hear the music clearly.
This second incident is really strange because I felt I was becoming proud at mass and prayed for humility to counter it. God gave it to me because I went off pitch for the communion hymn. I could hear it myself and that's even worse. Then now God elevates me. Oh well. Maybe I should be a grateful recipient of the gifts God wants to give me instead of questioning why He wants to give.
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