I went to the adoration room to prepare myself for the session and I saw the teaching co-ordinator there. I was heartened. I had always thought they aren't really into quiet forms of prayer.
As I went into the chapel, I saw a couple I know from my former choir. They were 'angels' to me because my other 'angels' weren't near me. The husband had brought his RCIA enquirer and her children for the experience. The couple was very warm and allowed me to sit between them so that I could talk to the wife. This was God's way of teaching me how to handle the task of bringing friends for the session, since I am doing so this week. I also got to know a Eurasian couple who had gone through a hiatus for 2 years as well.
The couple was clapping, lifting their hands and singing in worship to our God. This made me feel better. Even choir members do so. Also, I've always had a music rhythm problem and thus, my clapping isn't in time to the music. However, I felt comforted that I'm not alone in this. :) I decided to try something out. I stopped clapping along and I actually felt my hands itching to do so. Hence I'm fully into it now, so naturally. :) Of course, I resumed doing so.
As we went into worship, I Stand In Awe was sung and truly, it reflected my feelings then. God made me feel in awe of Him for how He had spoken to me and taught me His lessons and will during the day. I sang it with more awareness of His marvels than when I usually sing it.
The talk was on faith and Abraham's story of knowing that he was to be a father at 100 years old was illustrated. It also brought me to a greater consciousness of my faith in the Holy Spirit as I go up for praying over. The time for deeper worship leading up to intercessory prayer came. So You Would Come was sung and I was beyond all feeling when I sang it. I had used it to prepare myself at home earlier in the day. It was no mere coincidence again. God's marvels are so indescribable that you just can't feel with regards to it. The human heart can't embrace them because they're limitless in intensity.
As I went up to be prayed over, I was singing along to the song I Stand In Awe. I fell really quickly as I always do and this time, no one was inspired to push me down. I realised that I took a really long time to rest in the Spirit this time. God probably felt I needed to rest in Him. Unfortunately, I failed to let God open my eyes. The knowledge that I took a long time to rest caused me to try to open them on my own. As a result, I felt weak when I woke up. I couldn't participate in the worship when I returned to my seat. I had to sit down first.
A testimony was given and truly, God looks after His children even when we don't ask Him to. We take His protection for granted but He, in His mercy and love, disregards this.
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