This session started off differently with God molding me to be His unworthy instrument to a friend who wanted to join me in Charismatic worship. Through the week, He had spoken to me and prepared my heart to be open to His guidings about this matter.
We met for dinner and I shared with her my preparation experience for the night's climax. She could see that I was very enthusiastic. It was extremely comfortable being with her, since I prefer two-people outings. We joked and teased each other, and I really had a chance to update her on my life, since we had not met for ages and it's not as free sharing, when being on a three-people outing.
Then we went for mass first. It was a deep worship experience for me. Her presence made it more powerful for me. Perhaps kindred spirits with a desire for greater intimacy towards our God make each other's time with God more potent. Aside from this, two of my favourite songs were sung at mass. Behold The Lamb was one of the older songs sung in my choir and when my friend was in there too. So it was a bond for us. So You Would Come was the communion hymn and somehow it affirmed my openness to be God's instrument to her.
After drinks, we went to the adoration room and surprisingly, I wanted to spend a longer time there as compared to other occasions. Then we went for Charismatic session. This time, the worship leader looked for first-timers to the session but my friend's not uncomfortable with that. There was another girl too. However, I think she felt uncomfortable with the session and left before the talk. Still, I admire her courage to have gone alone for it for her first time. I was with a friend for my first time there.
The songs we sang were mostly familiar. Again, I just let myself go during worship and was focused on only my God, like my friend was too. The talk was on God's love. Before deeper worship and intercessory prayer, the worship leader said two phrases that I really needed for healing and strength: The battle belongs to the Lord and Remain in Me as I remain in you. They assure me that He is in control of everything and when I fear, I run to Him and cling to Him.
As I made myself ready for praying over, I did feel my heart beating fast but I disregarded this fact and went up. Somehow God knew what I had been going through the whole week. I had been looking forward to this session and my heart was literally aching as if someone was pressing on it, from the start of the session. I was aching and yearning for my God to wholly heal me. Immediately when I was anointed by the intercessors, I just fell. I know that God knew that I wanted and needed to rest in Him. I told myself to let Him open my eyes because I wanted to rest in Him. It was a conscious effort and as a result, I was able to get up easily. I didn't feel so weak. Also, the ache in my heart just stopped and peace returned.
God continued to heal me through the tears that flowed freely down my face. I was also grateful beyond description at how He had allowed me to fall so quickly so as to rest in Him immediately. My only way of showing gratitude was to cry. Not even singing could express it. Testimonies flowed after worship and courage was given to the fearful in the process. God gave more than they had expected to the witnesses.
My friend wants to continue going for Charismatic and I'm glad to be God's instrument to her. It gives me abundant joy to know that. We shared with each other our experiences during the session and will go for the subsequent sessions together.
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