I went for my second session and this time God blessed me so abundantly and evidently with His presence and graces. I didn't see my 'angel' and felt a little uncomfortable. So I sat at the back with this man instead. I didn't want to sit alone. I was anxious as to whether we were going to be the only 2 people there. Again, God allayed my fears.
My 'angel' and 'original angel' came in and others began streaming in. Even the man became an 'angel' to me with his intense singing, which put me at ease that I wasn't the only one doing so. People sat around me and I felt sheltered. It was a cosy feeling. I think I'll sit at the back for every session. :) I guess to be alone and exposed makes one feel uncomfortably vulnerable.
There were newcomers as well but some fit in rather well while others were uncomfortable and hid it via nervous laughter or silence. I understand their reactions because I was like them before.
We started praise and worship, and as we went into worship, I did it in a deep sense. When the Word was proclaimed, the quotes were messages to me personally. The talk was on Saving our Earth and I learnt some new facts about our God-bestowed planet. It certainly is our Christian duty to stop harming it with our self-centred habits.
We continued worship and the song Worthy is the Lamb stays with me even till now. I went up for praying over and this time, I thought that the intercessor pushed me down with his hands. I was grappling with this but this flew away when I knew that the time spent with eyes closed on the ground was the Spirit's time with me. I tried to open them but couldn't. That is the proof of the Spirit's presence and the more I thought about the pushing, the more I realised that the intercessor was merely being inspired by the Spirit to do so. When I go back after 'waking up', I always feel physically overwhelmed by His strength but I know that's God's own Spirit on me.
This time, I felt that I wanted to sit and sing to God in worship after my 'slaining'. Anyway, one of the worship leaders said to just do what is comfortable. So I didn't join the rest in standing while worshipping and instead of singing loudly, I sang softly to the God within me. When I was ready to stand, I did so.
The presence of God was so clearly felt not just by me but by others too. His graces spread through the chapel. We worshippers were visibly touched while the worship leader was gifted with knowledge as to the specific needs of some people. He told us to put our hands at the areas that needed healing and I did so for a few people in mind. I was privileged to have my needs spelt out rather obviously. That was the climactic proof of God's presence throughout the session for me. It gave me hope and faith in His power to bless and heal at the time He chooses.
It was a continuous flow of graces for the worship leader especially. I was really deep in worship, the deepest form of worship in all my worship moments. I even teared, something which I haven't done so during worship and at "special occasions" for a really long time. Testimonies were shared and then Worthy is the Lamb was sang to glorify God again.
Today's session is a continuation on the Earth and it's on the destruction aspect. Again, it is a sign that I must go for it. I was deliberating as to whether to go for it based on the original theme of the talk. I also want to lift up to God in His Holy Spirit, certain things which have happened this week, knowing that He will take care of them, as I worship Him with my whole heart and soul. If it's His will, I know the form of worship will be as deep as last week's. :)
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